Hi Rishi

Thanks for your lovely comment. I’m glad you found the article helpful.

Actually interestingly enough I was diagnosed with “emerging-schizoid personality disorder” when I was a teenager. I don’t think I have any SPD but some of the symptoms like “not fitting in,” being an “as if personality”, and finally the need to have a richer inner world of fantasy (hence being a writer) definitely overlap.

Originally Borderline Personality Disorder was called pseudo-neurotic Schizophrenia, so since the illness was first discovered there’s been problems with labels.

I’ve found diagnoses are helpful in understanding a problem, however I’m now at a point where I tend to see myself as “me.” Whatever symptoms I have, or don’t have, whatever condition they point towards, I’m confident that I know my own personality — and therefore recovery is more easy.

At the moment I still have minor symptoms of a what would be labelled a “personality disorder” but I’ve got to the stage where I don’t care. While my life certainly is not normal from a conventional standpoint, I’m determined to live it by being the best version of myself, each day and every day.

Best wishes


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