Hi Shreya, thanks so much for your feedback on this article, and also my other one on relationships. It means a lot to me, when I hear from readers who tell me my writing has helped them in some way.
Yes, I promise there’s hope. I was stuck in an unrelenting crisis of BPD for about fifteen years — I was as bad as you could get; frequently hospitalised, suicidal, out of control basically.
However, fast forward to 2020, I have reached what was once unimaginable — Recovery. I’m married, working, and most of all peaceful. My life isn’t “ordinary” in the usual sense; I still struggle with residual traits of emptiness, anxiety and depression. I have occasional bad days where I feel like I am slipping (but never do). Finally some areas of life remain difficult e.g. 9–5 work patterns, excessive socialising. The simple act of trying to “fit in” often feels impossible. We are all marked by experience in some way. However, when I was unwell it was like I was on fire with suffering, now it’s like brushing of the ashes of old pain while in pursuit of a life worth living.
It does get easier it does get better, so I hope you keep going, and I wish you all the best in the journey. Keep well!