How sharing my journey of BPD recovery changed my life.

A letter to my readers, the real heroes of this story.

Writing on Medium, telling my story led me from a place of total exclusion and disempowerment to resilience and belonging. Not because, I found the words, but because words found you.

Multiple studies conclude that recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder, as defined as remission of symptoms, at least one important relationship and a steady job, occurs in up to 90% of those diagnosed.

Have you ever felt burntout by suffering? A slave to your emotions? Feeling which rip through you with such alacrity that you lose control? Black-and-white thinking which splits your heart, and world with it, leaving no room for love and relationships? Emptiness and grief so profound, drink, drugs, and self-harm become the only means to cope? Chances are if you are reading this then you have.

And that’s BPD in a nutshell: Emotional, behavioural, and cognitive Instability, interpersonal chaos, incoherent self-image, and chronic suicidality. How can you get better from all that? And what caused you to get it in the first place?

BPD emerges, when signs of distress are renamed symptoms of mental illness, and when ordinary emotions are labelled pathological defects of character. These are the other ‘stories’, we hear about ourselves — we don’t have to believe them.

All my articles are written in the hope that one day you will understand yourself, appreciate your own value, and find the skills you need to be your own healer. Use the diagnosis, to learn what you can, and when you’ve learnt enough, throw it away.

I am not the hero of my story. You are the hero of my story. I’ve carried a torch only to pass it on to you, so you too can escape the fog and darkness.

Freelance journalist writing on mental health and disability. Words have the power to shine a light on realities otherwise missed.

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